Is Everything Slipping Away Or Shaping Up?

God help us all. During April, I experienced a phenomenon during Holy Week. I surmise I've risen to yet a higher consciousness level. Things make sense, but they are hard to analyze if that makes sense. Some can call it a narcissistic trait, self-serving, God complex like thinking, and others might say I'm spiritual rising. I'll take the latter. It was the first time I was able to be still during Passover, Easter, and Ramadan. I researched a lot of historical texts like the Bible, The Torah, and The Quran. My favorite character of all is Job. The Book of Job is about PATIENCE. He appears in all three texts. He is categorized as a prophet. God tells Satan, the manipulator of all things good and pious, to pretty much torture Job like you wouldn't believe. He takes everything from him, his riches, his family, and his health. It was a test. A test to see if Job would forget about everything he knows about God's righteousness.

Patience in suffering? Sheesh. But hmm, looking around right now, that's exactly where we are. Maybe God created Job to explain Covid-19? Maybe God teaches us human laws through the stories depicted in the religious texts. Maybe not. Could this be a test of humanity from the spiritual realm? Sure feels like one. In April, we tried to be POSITIVE, not coronavirus positive, but optimist that the virus would be under control in May due to our social distancing behaviors. Today is May 14th. May is mental health awareness month. I feel sad. I feel emotionally drained. I'm beginning to turn numb. The bitch inside is coming out. The nice person on the surface is disappearing. My patience is slipping. My attitude is more real. 

Meditate and Chill. So this weekend, I'm throwing a party online. RSVP here, it's on Instagram https://www.eventbrite.com/e/for-us-virtual-meet-up-hosted-on-instagram-tickets-103856447430 I had to shake things up in my psyche. Just because you can't be the old Tahyira, doesn't mean you give up becoming a new Tahyira. This is our new normal. And even when/if it goes back, we will not forget. So there's a big mental health burden on us all. Some of us already struggle with mental disorders passed down from undiagnosed family members. Some of us were already struggling financially stability. Some of us were already on the path of financial freedom. Most of us are different today then we were on March 1st. After I studied the religious stuff, I went into the War stuff. I listened to historians discuss World War II and the Nazis. I tried to understand how some people could put power and control over human lives. I will never understand. I honestly think this shift we are experiencing is the end of some kind of era. Like we will no longer be privileged to live in a society, ignorantly or blind. It's like the 60s all over again. The Anti culture. We're killing off the "we've always done it this way" mindset and opening a new "thinking out of the box" mindset.

Entrepreneurs were already there. Millennials specifically. I read an article about a middle-aged white male crying in an open letter to Trump saying, "Why am I being punished for doing the right thing." Ummm. Were you under a rock the past 10 years. Lol. It's a joke to me. White males are sinking faster than the Titanic and now they want a life vest as well. Weird. I had to pivot a few ideas, virtually, like the meetup event mentioned above but I didn't do it until I felt confident. Until my mind was clear and I had something honest to report to everyone.

The experts have said, the mental effects caused by Covid-19 will be seen in the years to come. Kind of like post-9/11. We didn't realize how crazy that day was for us until we grew up. It's like I will never forget literally. It was a traumatic collective experience. The Rona is that times a trillion. The uncertainty you feel is real. Talking to someone you trust is a good way to heal yourself from all of this. Accept your emotions. Process death and loss. Understand depression. Find real healing.

Love y'all!

Til we meet in a written space again... stay safe.

T