Ideas, Man I Got Ideas
Been gone for a min now I'm back with the jump off....
Lil Kim and Biggie and them ruled their careers and forget I come from the same town at times. I moved to Los Angeles and sort of lost my mind. Literally, ended up in a psych ward. Mental health is important. I had been putting off therapy for 15 years. That was not very smart behavior from a person like myself who prides themselves on intelligence. It was easy to ignore the mental issues I was suffering from because I hid it so well. Oh so well...
My family didn't know I almost flunked out of 11th grade from cutting. I had 80 absences and still managed to graduate 6 months early. I think I was born special. I think we are all born special. I spend hours out of the day thinking about why I was born. Growing up with parents who weren't' the best made it even more easier. I had an excuse. I was a child and that was childish. I am not a kid anymore so I took my mental issues into my own hand. If you are struggling and need help, please reach out. Many of my peers are struggling but we feel the need to always fake smile and be okay. Be what you are and work on being a better human, daily, that's my new motto.
Energy is important. I made a decision to tie the knot. I didn't think I would ever get married. I never thought I would meet someone so much like me. It's scary. It's also very exciting. He inspires me in so many ways. He is the reason I am an entrepreneur. He used to sell drugs and he went to prison for it. He showed me that you have control over your destiny. I helped him to channel his talents into a much better-looking lane. Hollywood we are here. We have so many ideas and dreams that brings us closer than most couples. I've always wanted to marry my best friend. Don't we all? Love has been something I've had mixed emotions about. Being unemotional in my manner, I never did PDA or wanted it. Public displays to me were more for the public than for the subjects, haha. He makes me want to show him off to the World. I was never proud to know a person and to have access to their heart. It is a spiritually feeling honestly. I think the last piece was for him to see me mentally broken. I had to see him cry for me. Love transform you if you allow it too.
Now, for the ideas, I am beyond excited. Not for any particular reason but mainly because of all the NEW. I'm back working with one of my partners on a pop-up brand and the challenges we face makes for me becoming a well-rounded businesswoman. I count all my losses because I'll be celebrating every win. I started back writing on different sites. I actually wanted to share a story about working with editors. I won't post the name of the site. I don't like when White people try and push Black content. A lot of us are fighting to get our own content out into the World by any means but I have a DO NOT CROSS ME line. If you are writing hip hop news it should be based on how you see it, not how the voices of the audience you're trying to reach sees it. That's it. Moving on.
I like to quit. I quit jobs I quit people I quit the nonsense. Learning to say, Nah I'll be alright, will save you time and earn you more money. Trust in yourself, always, before you trust in what someone else is going to do. Now, I'm not saying to act fake professional, if you need help get it from someone who can help you. But if you require something else, well, ask for that too. I take pride in my talents and my creative pursuits. It is the most personal thing to me next to my family and friends. We are kind of living in this microwave World where everything is over and done with within seconds. I don't want fifteen seconds of fame. I would much rather build a career and a future consistently by helping to make dreams come true. I am a writer, a weirdo, and a dreamer.
I have passion. The reason I am able to quit or walk away from situations quickly is that I am passionate about my work ethic. I'm as what they say 'a people's people'. I never want to be the cause of anyone's pain, misfortune, failures, or losses. I want to, in fact, provide pleasure. I'd like to say humanitarians care about society and the World but I think I'm more than a humanitarian. I think I am like, well, a light. I shine and I help others find their own light. I spread inspiration and positivity. I believe in the strength of mankind. I truly believe we are one World. My ideas for my tv shows are situational comedies. I think about characters that would not normally interact in today's "Real World" but they live harmoniously in my storylines.
I stopped to try and remember the first story I made up. It was a spinoff from the Princess and the Frog. I remembered reading a negro version of the story when I was a kid and was inspired by how animals came to life in books. I wrote a story about two little girls who were best friends. They had both wanted a best friend for so long but their parents moved around a lot. When I think really really hard I can still see the images in my head of how I imagined the cartoon would look. One was fair-skinned and the other friend was my complexion, medium brown. They live in a magical city and met by the purple lake. They instantly became BFFs when they realized they were wearing the same rainbow tee shirt, purple like the lake and also my favorite color. I was never into art, a disclaimer. But I was creative at a young age. My imagination always ran wild and far. I love the quote "the creative adult is the child who survived". Not sure where it originates from but I see it a lot in graffiti art. It rings very true in my life.
I moved out to Los Angeles to pursue my dreams. What are my dreams? Well, there the ideas that were already in motion from back in the 1990s growing up in Brooklyn. I can make up people. I can create Worlds. I can manifest personalities and bring them to life through this magic called storytelling. I have the passion, respect for the arts, and work ethic to turn all my dreams into realities. I hope you find the courage to do the same.
Everyone loves a good story, don't they?
Til we meet again.....
T
Lil Kim and Biggie and them ruled their careers and forget I come from the same town at times. I moved to Los Angeles and sort of lost my mind. Literally, ended up in a psych ward. Mental health is important. I had been putting off therapy for 15 years. That was not very smart behavior from a person like myself who prides themselves on intelligence. It was easy to ignore the mental issues I was suffering from because I hid it so well. Oh so well...
My family didn't know I almost flunked out of 11th grade from cutting. I had 80 absences and still managed to graduate 6 months early. I think I was born special. I think we are all born special. I spend hours out of the day thinking about why I was born. Growing up with parents who weren't' the best made it even more easier. I had an excuse. I was a child and that was childish. I am not a kid anymore so I took my mental issues into my own hand. If you are struggling and need help, please reach out. Many of my peers are struggling but we feel the need to always fake smile and be okay. Be what you are and work on being a better human, daily, that's my new motto.
Energy is important. I made a decision to tie the knot. I didn't think I would ever get married. I never thought I would meet someone so much like me. It's scary. It's also very exciting. He inspires me in so many ways. He is the reason I am an entrepreneur. He used to sell drugs and he went to prison for it. He showed me that you have control over your destiny. I helped him to channel his talents into a much better-looking lane. Hollywood we are here. We have so many ideas and dreams that brings us closer than most couples. I've always wanted to marry my best friend. Don't we all? Love has been something I've had mixed emotions about. Being unemotional in my manner, I never did PDA or wanted it. Public displays to me were more for the public than for the subjects, haha. He makes me want to show him off to the World. I was never proud to know a person and to have access to their heart. It is a spiritually feeling honestly. I think the last piece was for him to see me mentally broken. I had to see him cry for me. Love transform you if you allow it too.
Now, for the ideas, I am beyond excited. Not for any particular reason but mainly because of all the NEW. I'm back working with one of my partners on a pop-up brand and the challenges we face makes for me becoming a well-rounded businesswoman. I count all my losses because I'll be celebrating every win. I started back writing on different sites. I actually wanted to share a story about working with editors. I won't post the name of the site. I don't like when White people try and push Black content. A lot of us are fighting to get our own content out into the World by any means but I have a DO NOT CROSS ME line. If you are writing hip hop news it should be based on how you see it, not how the voices of the audience you're trying to reach sees it. That's it. Moving on.
I like to quit. I quit jobs I quit people I quit the nonsense. Learning to say, Nah I'll be alright, will save you time and earn you more money. Trust in yourself, always, before you trust in what someone else is going to do. Now, I'm not saying to act fake professional, if you need help get it from someone who can help you. But if you require something else, well, ask for that too. I take pride in my talents and my creative pursuits. It is the most personal thing to me next to my family and friends. We are kind of living in this microwave World where everything is over and done with within seconds. I don't want fifteen seconds of fame. I would much rather build a career and a future consistently by helping to make dreams come true. I am a writer, a weirdo, and a dreamer.
I have passion. The reason I am able to quit or walk away from situations quickly is that I am passionate about my work ethic. I'm as what they say 'a people's people'. I never want to be the cause of anyone's pain, misfortune, failures, or losses. I want to, in fact, provide pleasure. I'd like to say humanitarians care about society and the World but I think I'm more than a humanitarian. I think I am like, well, a light. I shine and I help others find their own light. I spread inspiration and positivity. I believe in the strength of mankind. I truly believe we are one World. My ideas for my tv shows are situational comedies. I think about characters that would not normally interact in today's "Real World" but they live harmoniously in my storylines.
I stopped to try and remember the first story I made up. It was a spinoff from the Princess and the Frog. I remembered reading a negro version of the story when I was a kid and was inspired by how animals came to life in books. I wrote a story about two little girls who were best friends. They had both wanted a best friend for so long but their parents moved around a lot. When I think really really hard I can still see the images in my head of how I imagined the cartoon would look. One was fair-skinned and the other friend was my complexion, medium brown. They live in a magical city and met by the purple lake. They instantly became BFFs when they realized they were wearing the same rainbow tee shirt, purple like the lake and also my favorite color. I was never into art, a disclaimer. But I was creative at a young age. My imagination always ran wild and far. I love the quote "the creative adult is the child who survived". Not sure where it originates from but I see it a lot in graffiti art. It rings very true in my life.
I moved out to Los Angeles to pursue my dreams. What are my dreams? Well, there the ideas that were already in motion from back in the 1990s growing up in Brooklyn. I can make up people. I can create Worlds. I can manifest personalities and bring them to life through this magic called storytelling. I have the passion, respect for the arts, and work ethic to turn all my dreams into realities. I hope you find the courage to do the same.
Everyone loves a good story, don't they?
Til we meet again.....
T
Comments
Post a Comment