Grief and a Green Dreamcatcher

 Dear Diary,

Displaced grief has been the hardest pill to swallow.  My process has always been outspokenness and realness, but these days I’ve been struggling with finding clarity — or something real to say.  Grief is hollow.  It leaves some kind of space.  Mine isn’t a sphere or a cylinder; it’s actually shaped like a heart.  A heart that’s been clearing its chakras in the color green.

Here’s the freaky, weird, magically non-science part: I bought an all-green dreamcatcher in Trinidad hours before I left.  I didn't know at that time that the color green represented the heart chakra until I came back and did a yoga session.  It’s also kind of weird that my social worker said explicitly to me, “It’s good you're able to tap into your source energy because that’s all mental health is, it's when we lose our sense of self....” I wanted to hug her.  But I did not.  I just smiled. It’s a good feeling to have your weird thoughts matched in the therapy world.  A lot of holistic practices require us to recognize colors.  It’s like a color WAR at times.  I’ve been good with Blue and Green lately.   I have been working on alignment with my heart, coming out of a long relationship.  Divorce is full of grief as well. But it’s less about your ex and more about your own brain being stimulated.  Or perhaps re-stimulated.

Aligning the heart chakra after experiencing deep grief, such as the loss of a grandparent, is a gentle process that honors both your emotions and your healing journey. Here are some supportive steps you can take:

1. Allow Yourself to Grieve
The heart chakra (Anahata) is closely linked to love, compassion, and emotional openness. Suppressing grief can block this energy center. Give yourself permission to feel sadness, loss, and even anger—these are natural parts of the healing process.

2. Heart-Centered Meditation
Practice meditation that focuses on your heart space. Sit comfortably, close your eyes, and place your hands over your heart. Breathe deeply and imagine a gentle green light (the color of the heart chakra) radiating from your chest. Each breath can help soften pain and invite healing.

3. Express Your Feelings
Journaling, creating art, or talking to a trusted friend about your grandparent and your memories can help release pent-up emotions and keep your heart open.

4. Practice Self-Compassion
Be gentle with yourself. Repeat loving affirmations such as “I am allowed to grieve. My heart is healing. I am surrounded by love.”

5. Connect with Nature
Spending time in nature, especially among greenery, can naturally support the heart chakra. Take walks in the park, sit under a tree, or tend to a garden.

6. Engage in Loving Acts
Doing something kind for others—volunteering, comforting a friend, or simply smiling at a stranger—can help restore a sense of connection and compassion.

7. Seek Support
Consider speaking with a grief counselor, spiritual guide, or joining a support group. Sharing your experience can bring comfort and new perspectives.

8. Heart Chakra Yoga Poses
Gentle backbends, such as Cobra, Camel, and Bridge pose, help open the chest and support energetic flow through the heart chakra.

9. Use Healing Crystals and Aromatherapy
Rose quartz, green aventurine, and jade are associated with heart healing. Essential oils like rose, geranium, and lavender can also provide comfort.

Deep down, we all seek comfort. Many of our loved ones are falling into despair, whether through sickness or personal struggles. This is partly due to a deep disconnect. Modern life separates us from community and genuine connection; we spend more time online and less face-to-face. Since humans are social beings, this isolation leads to emptiness, sadness, and depression. People feel lost, without purpose or value. Work seems empty, and traditional sources of meaning, like religion and community, have less presence in some cultures. In places like the United States, holistic and spiritual outlets are few. To find meaning and healing, we must actively build community and connect with like-minded people. Personal and collective traumas, loss, abuse, and societal upheaval only accumulate when there are few chances for healing or expression.

Are We Seeking Comfort in Humanity?

Being vulnerable is becoming heavy, yet I share publicly because I’m mostly fearless. My internal power mechanism isn’t always visible, but rises as needed. I’m highly attuned to the energy of spirits and souls, and by asking questions, I sense others’ emotions. This is a distinct kind of intelligence, unlike AI. Grief creates emptiness and drives our pursuit of truth, though that search can mislead us. Depression may feel like a pothole under your bed—a signal to address unmet needs, unprocessed pain, or lack of connection. Seeking comfort in humanity isn’t weakness; it’s wisdom.  I seek solitude when I feel sorrowful.  Sometimes, what looks or feels like depression during grief is actually a deep, necessary descent into sorrow.  It’s a mind game, or a trick that protects my psyche from overwhelming emotional pain, so you're starting towards your healing journey.  Here’s what the research on solitude says:

-Feel your emotions without judgment or interruption

-Reflect on your relationship with the person you lost

-Rest and recharge your energy

-Re-discover your own needs, desires, and identity outside of the relationship

The first two seem like duh.  The last two feel like WOAH-AHH WHOOOAHH!

Wherever you fall on your own healing journey, I wish you health and mental strength.

Love Tee